Thursday 9/3 and the lovely district nurse comes to visit, she checks drain and shows me how to change the drainage bag each day, measure it and let them know how many ml there is each 24 hours! They won’t visit again until 10 days to check wounds and then again once drain less than 50ml for 2 consecutive days, to remove it! I had a fairly good night. Sent hubby downstairs to sleep so I wouldn’t disturb him. Getting used to having a drain with me 24/7 is interesting! Connor (my eldest) stays home to offer any support I might need, he’s great at a cup of tea. I’m up and dressed, started the physio exercises suggested for every day (armpit is very tight, mobility of that arm limited). Think I’m still running on adrenaline, finding it hard to sit still. I know I’m meant to be resting but for me right now this is hard to do! Frustrating knowing I can’t just take my own dogs out for walk, although the shitty weather outside makes me grateful to be inside!
Friday 10/3 and I’m on my own, which is fine, no one to look at me with pity! Mum and Dad come to take dogs out for me! So frustrating to not be doing it myself! I’m not good at accepting help! Although grateful the cleaner here today, so one less thing to think about!
Adrenaline has left my body and I’m finally de-stressing! Still keeping mobile and doing exercises but spending more time resting!
My appointment for ultrasound has come through for Monday 13th! Mum takes me along. Not too stressed but obviously slightly anxious for good news. Ultrasound carried out and absolutely nothing wrong with ovary (apparently looks young and healthy with lots of eggs (which is of course what any 50 year old woman wants to hear!)). Im yet again on my period, but ultrasound doesn’t see anything wrong there either! Just my body reacting to stopping HRT, stress etc. So anyway, this check results as good news.
Wednesday 15/3 comes around and back to Wonford for the bone scan! Am very worried about this one as terrified that cancer has made it to my bones! You have to have a radioactive dye (small amount) injected through a cannula, not uncomfortable and sadly no special powers afterwards! 2 hours later and it’s time to go into the bone scanner. Having a friend who’s been through this prepared me for this scan and it went ok, not uncomfortable or noisy just a little claustrophobic when the plate is above your head (I just kept my eyes closed and concentrated on breathing!).
A week post op and I’m doing ok. Obviously anxious for bone scan results but mostly keeping my wandering negative mind in check! That is one of the hardest parts of this journey, the negative depressive anxious mind!
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