Respite in Warmer Countries

 


The first photo literally shows my year with a massive cloud right above my head, it’s followed me around for months, hanging on tight to my life.  

The second photo shows me! Not me the cancer person or me the warrior or survivor, just me! The person!  The help I’ve received from Maria through Force Counselling has helped me to deal with so much of the thoughts and emotions around this year.

Now realistically I know that I’m not done yet and there maybe more of the cloud above me, but it’s nice to know I’m still in there on cloud free days. 

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