Lost

 I’m finding it hard trying to figure out where I fit in life! I’m feeling a bit lost! I have my bone infusion, ovary blocker injection and the oral drugs tomorrow!  I’m hating the fact I have to go back to Cherrybrook Ward where chemo was administered, this place has too many emotions attached to it.  I feel daunted at not knowing how tomorrow will affect me and that raises the bigger fears of worrying about my future! 

To be able to forget this year and go back to my past self is not an option! I have to try to live with this year and believe that cancer won’t show it’s ugly head again, but some days are harder than others.  I get frustrated and angry about this! 

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