Update!

 It’s taken almost a week to final feel a bit better after round 7!  The Codine for the pain made me feel spaced out and a bit nauseous so didn’t do for more than 12 hours! So just had to put up with pain and lack of sleep!! It’s Sunday today and I should have been at Beautiful Days Festival with my husband!! Fucking C Twat!!! No point us both being home feeling miserable so made him go and sent our youngest son in my place!  He’s missing me and I’m missing doing something else that would have been fun to do with him! But they’re both enjoying and youngest has got the festival bug!

I managed to get to local food festival yesterday, albeit hard work just walking up high street!  Forgot about how I was likely to be stopped to see how I was was those who know me!! Fine! Getting there! Only 1 more! Tired! Automatic responses are key to this shit show!! Wouldn’t want to go down the truth about how you really feel, too depressing to go there so just don’t!  People don’t really want to know, they don’t know where to put themselves if you were brutally honest!  Looks of pity and tbh thank god it’s not me are common, I’d be the same if shoe on other foot, especially if I’d never had this! You certainly can’t entirely explain the effects chemo especially has on your body and mind, only those in this fucked up club can honestly emphasise and understand.  

But on the plus side I overdosed on surgery treats and it got me out of my own four walls for a couple of hours!  Onwards and upwards!!